How do you solve this problem?

At home I feel very angry sometimes. The reasons differ from having arguments with my parents to hearing something on the news. I have now instigated on these satanic thoughts of how to torture people, even drawing the vile methods with instructions in fine detail. My parents have embarked upon these doents and think that I am a sadist and need help. I have also commenced on perfecting everything altering from use of grammar to studying university grade mathematics and theories. What is happening to my lifestyle? I am aware of my alterations but cannot change them.